Sucked In

I can't stop reading this diary.

I don't want to go make my lunch. I don't want to watch TV. I don't want to exercise. I just want to keep reading.

It's not even about me anymore — at this point in the diary, Memaw and I (except Mom called her Grannie then) have flown to Florida to stay with Granny and Charlie for a while, and Mom is hanging around Medina, staying with friends until the paternity suit against my father.

That was my first plane ride, and was my only plane ride until a few years back, when I went with Mom and Gary and Philip to visit Gary's family in Fort Worth.

I love taking these one-page synopses of Mom's days and trying to imagine what her life was really like. Moving out of the apartment to a couple other friends' places. Missing me so much. Trying to get a job. Trying to "get her head on straight."

We've both come so far.

I love you, Mom.