Weird Mood

I'm in the mood to write fiction, but I'm resisting the urge to free write, because I will undoubtedly end up with smut. Yep, that's me, Diana, the budding smut novelist. Sigh. My brain takes the weirdest turns sometimes.

I had a whole little sheet of paper full of what I wanted to blog about today, but I forgot and left it at work. Same with the Post-It where I listed everything I ate today and at what times. That was helpful.

I remember a lot of what I'd wanted to say, but I find I don't really want to say it anymore. It's all kind of dumb thoughts in passing, like how annoyed I am with the women in whose room I work. And our broken toilet, which now only flushes by lifting up the tank lid and fishing for the broken flush arm. And the scanner that my computer won't load anymore. And, oh yeah, my student loan bill this month is more than my rent. Thanks for the fisting, Department of Education, can I have another?

I need to chill out on the candle thing, too, unless I intend to make some sort of game plan for marketing and distributing my wares. Christmas only comes but once a year, and unless I'm going to be the weird lady who gives candles to everybody when they come to visit, I couldn't justify making candles because it's fun and just gifting them year round. I've already spent probably a hundred bucks on candle supplies as it is.

I am in one funky-ass mood. Not depressed, and not quite bored, but definitely on the dark side. Not down on myself (for once), but not in a positive mood in the slightest. OK, maybe the slightest...

Oh, and guys? Even if the "blog" craze is settling down, I'll probably keep doing this thing. I keep a journal anyway, and sharing it with people seems like the thing to do. Granted, there are some things I don't write here that I would write in a private journal, but those are rare. If it weren't for blogging, I probably wouldn't even be keeping a journal right now, because I usually only write in a paper journal when I have an emotional crisis to solve. :-)

No, I've changed my mind. I am bored. Which, by my definition, means nothing I can think of to do sounds good. Guess I'll go bum around until I can come up with something.

later...
I attempted to cure my boredom with some websurfing. I'm not nearly as good at it as I used to be. I forget where my old jumping-off points were.

Anyway, I downloaded some random stuff on WinMX, too, and found a techno version of the Sesame Street theme (not the best one I've heard, either). Somehow from that, I ended up thinking of that early 80's kid's show, The Great Space Coaster. Most of you won't know what the hell I'm talking about... but for those of you my age or a little older, here's some nostalgia for you:

Baxter (with the Huggles)	Gary Gnu (No Gnus is Good Gnus...)

Knock-Knock	Goriddle Gorilla

Speed Reader	The Great Space Coaster logo

Bring back any memories? Man, when I was in Kindergarten through second grade, this was my FAVORITE show. I'd forgotten. I don't have any desire to collect VCDs of it or anything, though, because I know it would sully my memories of how great it was. I'll just look at the pictures and listen to the theme song and remember how great it was to be five years old and sitting in front of the TV...