Introspection, circa 2002

Found written in an old day planner of mine, from 2002 or 2003:

I am an interesting dichotomy.

• I will complain about a job, then complete it to the best of my ability.
• I prefer to be "behind the scenes," yet feel put out when I fail to get the credit I deserve.
• I feel I "deserve" a job in my field, then don't have faith in my abilities when I apply or interview for one.