Synopsis: Diana complains about the effects of her menstrual cycle of late, including the usual mood swings, but also unusual fatigue and cramping. Most people won’t need to read on, unless you want to commiserate or offer suggestions.
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My boss probably thinks I’m a slacker or a wimp when it comes to sick days.
My “monthly visitor” never used to be this ruthless. At least, this month, I didn’t have incapacitating cramps; this time, it was amazing fatigue. I was pretty worn down all weekend, with some stints of normality thrown in. My second wind hit a little late on Sunday, and I didn’t get to bed quite as early as I should have; still, though, seven hours of sleep should have been quite sufficient to get me up and around.
But when the alarm went off Monday morning, I just. couldn’t. do it. I gave it ye olde college try, but ended up stumbling downstairs and emailing my boss from my iPhone that I’d be taking a sick day today.
I then proceeded to sleep for a grand total of TWELVE HOURS. Well, 11½, but still. And I could easily have kept sleeping.
I at least managed to get one thing done today: some cleaning that mainly just involved me sitting on the floor by a pile of crap and putting the crap where it’s supposed to go.
I get so frustrated with myself when I waste a day from being tired. But I’m not exactly the best at self-motivation — yes, I know that exercise would get me up and moving, but something needs to get me up and exercising. Factor in my weird mood swings and (self-diagnosed) depression and how I think too much when I’m tired, and it just gets worse and worse.
Every month I tell myself that I’m NOT going to use that sick day that just tacked itself back onto my allowance. And every damn month, I use it during the first few days of my cycle, either for extreme fatigue or curl-up-in-bed-and-die cramps. This is getting seriously irritating.
Am I missing something besides sleep? Iron, maybe? Hell if I know. I just want this to stop.