I think I’m discovering that diet and exercise both play an important role in my mood. To some people, I’m sure my discovery seems like a big *DUH* moment. Really, though, I never thought about it much beyond the whole concept of blood sugar levels. Now that I’m in kind of a fitness groove, though, I’m finding that throwing a monkeywrench into my routine can really screw up my mojo.
Today’s example begins with an early day: doctor’s visit before work. Getting up early actually made my morning better, and I think I’ll try to keep up with the early rising. (Those of you who know me well may scoff at that. It’s cool. I don’t mind.) My breakfast-at-my-desk was a little too light: a breakfast bar. I had my morning snack a little earlier than usual, and still I was intensely and painfully hungry by lunchtime. My afternoon snack was pretty lame: a sugar-free pudding. So, when I got home, I was completely unprepared for my normal workout while dinner was cooking. I ended up eating a large snack, then foregoing the workout (I told myself I’d do it later, but I was lying) and making a dinner with waaaay too many calories from fat.
So, how do I feel? Unmotivated. Kinda lethargic. Only three or four hours ago, I was geeked to the gills to start a new phase of my freelance project. Now, I’d much rather shovel down a bag of cinnamon pork rinds and sit in front of the TV. I’m convinced this is directly related to my small breakfast and impotent afternoon (pre-workout) snack. Those two small links in my day caused a chain reaction that played on my not having planned an appropriate dinner ahead of time, and allowed me to say, “Fuck it. I’m having alfredo for dinner.”
The trick now is figuring out what I’m willing to do to shake this funk and get back to work. I’ve already lost a good part of the evening hours. I think I’m going to bust off a couple basic exercises — maybe some girlie pushups, maybe some stiff-legged deadlifts, and a few sets of crunches — then drink a glass of water (bringing me to eight today!) and get to work on this project.
*deep breath*
Let’s do it.
I’m reminded of the kitchen scene in the Matrix where Neo is advised, “Know Thyself.” It’s interesting to know “how it is” in a general sense, but something else to discover exactly “how you are.”