Circadian Rhythms

It’s obvious on this sleep graph where school started this August.

There’s a definite transition from the summer schedule of 6:50am weekday wake-up to the new school-year schedule of 6am wake-up (or thereabouts). That squiggly part in between was the week before school started, where there was no summer camp, so I took the week off to hang out and have some fun with Connor. Ah, that one glorious day when we slept past 8:30!

I find myself waking up at 6:30am on weekends now. I don’t get up and stay up, but I do wake up to go pee. Then I crawl back in bed and get another sleep cycle in before Connor comes to the door at 8:00 sharp and stage-whispers, “Good morning, Mommy!”

First Snow Day

A green golf-cart-like vehicle is driving past the window of the downtown Starbucks. The rear gate is down, and a man in a hooded Carhartt is dangling his legs off the back, sweeping armfuls of icemelt from behind himself and down onto the sidewalk.

That explains the curious patterns the salt makes.

The precipitation is falling like a fine, light snow, but making ripples in the puddles like rain. All morning, it hasn’t been able to commit to one form or the other — rain or snow or something in between.

Many of the trees in the oversized black planters outside are still clinging to leaves in shades of burgundy, orange, and chartreuse. The fall colors seem out of place with their branches’ accompanying thin layer of snow.

My son is enjoying his first snow day of first grade. Not at home, though: he’s at Extended Time, at the same place where he attended summer day camp. Hopefully, that means he’ll get to see some friends he hasn’t seen since August or September. For once, he was excited to go to ET; last year, he hated ET because he would miss his normal school friends. That boy is so social.

The car seems to just know the way to that school, after three straight months of morning drives to summer camp, after a full school year of snow days and all-day programs during breaks. Funny how an old routine can be so comfortable and familiar, like putting on that pair of sneakers after a summer of sandals.

Snowflakes are falling in earnest now, as I write this. This morning, as we drove to ET, the precipitation fell on the windshield as a light rain, but with the percussive hit of sleet. Hence why nearly every school district in the area cancelled for the day.

No snow day for us grown-ups, though. Time to get back to work.

Shaking off my Parent Fail

So, remember how I said the other day how I feel better when I write and get stuff out?

Well, here I am, with my phone and my Bluetooth keyboard, taking my lunch break in the Starbucks next door to my work, because I hope that writing about my failings will make me feel like less of a schmuck.

Here, let me share the text I sent to my hubby this morning:

Parent fail this morning

Like my coworker (Hi, N!) said when I relayed this story to her this morning: Moms are human, too. It’s just that… I mean, yeah, it’s annoying when I have to tell my first grader to do something three times before he even acknowledges that I’ve spoken to him, but does it really merit raising my voice to him? Is that who I want him to think I am? He already hides under his sheets because he’s “scared” when I yell at him at bedtime for not listening.

Talk about feeling like a turd.  Continue reading →