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Um… I’m kind of embarrassed to admit this, but…

For the past couple of days, I’ve been on a Barry Manilow kick. o.O

I only wish I could find the original Barry Manilow Greatest Hits album in mp3. I downloaded the Greatest Hits Platinum Collection, but it’s not the same. Most of the tunes are his 80’s songs and remakes of his older hits, not the original 70’s tunes I played over and over on my cassette player during that one summer when I was thirteen. (Gotta love double-album-length cassettes. That tape I once scammed from my Mom had is now apparently available on CD as Volumes 1 and 2, with a bonus track on each.)

Is it any wonder that I was a social reject? 😛

I feel excited today, like I have lots of fun projects to look forward to later tonight. Since I figured out how to make the sewing machine go last night, I have lots of ideas of stuff to experiment with and practice, to prepare myself for making a fursuit and fleece hats and such. Half a dozen people in the office have commented on the tealight sampler that Holly bought from me, asking me what all I sell and how much candles cost, so I?m all geeked to try some more scents and add a PayPal shopping cart to my candle website and post photos of my available containers and all that. And on top of all that, I still have some updates to add to the LakeShoremen website, in addition to doing some preliminary designs and critiquing other corps? websites for design ideas. Oh, and I need to practice my mellophone and do some exercise (which I?ve been neglecting for the past week or so, due to various issues).

Now, if I can only maintain this excitement through the work day and make it carry over to this evening…

Update, 12:44pm: Still happy, even after a 10-minute nap during my lunch break (which always has the potential to make me groggy). The blue sky an fluffy white clouds are exciting me now, even though I know it?s still friggin? cold outside. I?m rarely genuinely happy like this, so I?m kind of basking in it while it lasts. Usually I?m depressed for no good reason?being happy for no good reason is a pleasant change.

Update, 2:59pm: The sun is beaming into the window by my cubicle, casting neat highlights and shadows on the budding geraniums in the windowsill. I?m still in a good mood, but not quite as much as I was. Now I?m just anxious to get home, and I know I still have two hours to go.

Update, 8:43pm: Not enough hours in the day. Not enough energy in the Diana. Made a yummy dinner of garlic-ginger chicken with low-carb linguine (yes, my own concoction), then updated the LSM site. Now I’m tired and don’t want to do anything constructive. Now, even though I’m excited inside, I can’t get enough oomph to fire up the sewing machine and make… nothing, yet, except strange patterns of stitching on practice material. Maybe once I chill for a while and eat a low-carb fudgie bar and find a new book to read, I’ll be interested in sewing some more.

Ah, intentions… *sigh*

Ehh.

It’s not like I don’t have a to-do list the length of my arm.

I just can’t get excited about any of it.

I can’t even get excited about sitting at my computer and watching Episode #6 of Fullmetal Alchemist.

I’d contemplate taking a nap, if I wouldn’t end up feeling cheated out of a half-hour of my day. As it is, I’m contemplating just chillin’ on the couch and reading a book I’ve read a dozen times before.

I really wish I could make myself get up and pick something to do, because goodness knows I’ve got enough to keep me busy. Review drumcorps websites and make preliminary designs for the LakeShoremen site; encode more mp3s and burn a new mp3 disc for work; put all my clean clothes away; clear off the dining room table; hell, I could even clean my desk. But my eyes are tired… legs are sore from yesterday’s workout… brain can’t concentrate… my stomach thinks it’s hungry (and it could be right—I did eat a pretty small dinner)… I dunno. Maybe I’ll chill for a while and see if anything sounds good after ‘while.

It occured to me today that my posts as of late have been mainly fluff: avatars, candles, news updates, and the like. There are a few things I’ve posted about recently—mainly the Larry King Live interview with LDS President Hinkley and my Ohayocon pictures & review—that have generated a veritable fuckload of search engine traffic, which is fun.

It also occured to me that I could quite possibly have forgotten how to formulate a proper written argument. (It’s been a while since undergrad.) This shortcoming could present a problem when trying to pontificate on a potentially controversial subject; after all, I’m not the sort to go spouting off at the mouth on a regular basis. So, when I do get on my soapbox, I try not to sound like a raving idiot.

So, instead of writing a proper essay, I will instead string together a few potentially controversial facts, and see where the comments go.

*dons flame-retardant gear*
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