The scariest thing about ADHD is that I don’t know how to make my brain work
Category Archives: mental health
Today’s Project: The Workbench
For once, I managed to take a Before picture to contrast with the After.
I had the itch to organize this afternoon, but couldn’t decide on a direction, so I gave Aaron a few options of things I’d been thinking of tackling. Of the tasks I listed, he chose the workbench in the garage.
Instead of my usual triage method — group like objects together, throw away the garbage, and collect the stuff I’ll need to put someplace else later — I worked from one end of the bench to the other, putting each item where it belonged as I came to it.
It took a couple of hours and multiple listens of the entirety of Wish (The Cure, 1992), but it got done, and done right.
Twitter Update: Unfocused
Sitting in my home office, staring at my laptop, wondering why it’s so hard to get focused this morning.
Realized I didn’t take my #ADHD meds yet. Glad this happened on a Work From Home day and not an In-Office day!
Now to keep myself on track until my meds kick in…
Twitter Update: Fatigued
Today’s personal epiphany: I have trouble differentiating physical fatigue from depression or mental fatigue. When I can’t summon any cares to give, it doesn’t occur to me that I might just need to go to bed earlier tonight. #mentalhealth
At Least I Can See It Coming Now
I hit the button to start writing a new post, and now I have a blank page staring back at me.
I’m here because I’m feeling kind of blah, and have felt that way for a good part of the day, for no discernible reason. Worked from home this morning, took my son to a doctor’s appointment this afternoon. Read a magazine because I didn’t want to play on my phone anymore. Ordered sushi for dinner (Connor requested a Philly roll and a Salmon Skin roll).
Haven’t wanted to do a damn thing this whole afternoon. There’s stuff I’ve wanted to get done, but nothing I wanted to take action on. I recognize this mood: if I’m not careful, I’ll end up watching YouTube for two or three hours and possibly eating an after-dinner snack and two desserts.
I received a friend request from a duplicate account on Facebook that actually does seem likely to be who they say they are. Still, though, I’m skeptical of all duplicate FB accounts. I contacted them via all other channels to verify — multiple email addresses, their other FB account — with no answer yet. I’m a little concerned, but not sure what I can do, and that’s not helping my funk right now.
If I don’t distract myself somehow, I’ll start down the path of legit reasons I have to be down on myself, and that’s definitely not helpful.
We’ll see.