links for 2008-02-12

Business Trip #1

There may be few or no updates for the remainder of the week, as I will be in Columbus (Dublin) for MicroStrategy training. I’m sure the Hampton has a business center where I can check my e-mail and whatnot, but I’m not sure how much time I’ll be able to spend on e-mail and keeping up with my RSS feeds, much less actually blogging.

Even though I’ll be missing out on a grand total of 45 minutes (that’s three days’ worth) of Aaron time, I’ll be hanging out with some old friends in the evenings, which is awesome. I know there are some people in the area that I’m not getting to meet up with, and I do apologize for that. Maybe next time… (And there probably WILL be a next time, with all the training I could potentially sign up for.)

I’m looking forward to learning more about the Business Intelligence software I’ve been using at work; I’m also looking forward to seeing old friends, and having a change of scenery. I’m not looking forward to being away from my Honey-Muffin on the Hallmark Holiday Valentine’s Day, or really being away from him at all; and I’m not sure about making the 2½ hour drive to Columbus alone for the first time.

I’m a big girl. I can go on a big bad business trip by myself.

Right?

All The Better To Kiss You With

All The Better To Kiss You With

I’m not usually one to be immediately sucked in by any sort of endorsement, be it from a friend or a celebrity or a celebrity blogger. Somehow, though, after Dooce posted about All The Better To Kiss You With organic lip balm last month (with a much better photo than my own, as always), I found myself on the BABYBEARSHOP website, ordering myself a three-pack of organic lip balm.

Apparently, the Force is strong with Dooce, because I was just one of many who bumrushed the BABYBEARSHOP all at once, so much so that they felt the need to apologize for the (very minor) delay in shipping my order.

I was tickled when I finally received my lip balm — probably a little *too* tickled, honestly. But they were all wrapped together in this ornate blue butterfly tissue paper, which was all folded and tucked in around the tiny tins like a cross between origami and a note I’d have passed in Junior High. As silly as it sounds, I enjoyed the process of unfolding the tissue paper and revealing the product inside. The packaging for the lip balms themselves is also very ornate and antique-inspired. I love it.

As for the actual product, it also does not disappoint. The three flavors available are Chai Mandarin, Lavender Vanilla, and Pepperminty. My current favorite is the Chai Mandarin. For the first few days I had the lip balm, I was applying it every hour or so. At my desk. In the office. My lips were just drinking it in. It was awesome. And I’m not sure I believe it myself, but it really seems like my lips are softer and not so prone to chapping in this nasty cold weather as they were a couple of weeks ago.

Plus, man, this stuff smells great. It’s giving me ideas for soy candles.

Unsour Grapes

I was sitting at my desk today, eating some grapes and reading a training manual, when my mind started to wander. I remembered being about ten years old and visiting my Granny in Florida, and eating the grapes that grew wild on her property.

My extended-nuclear family (myself, Mom, Memaw, and Aunt Sammie) had moved to Florida, ostensibly to be closer to Granny and Uncle Charlie (Memaw’s mother and brother). So, for a three-year stretch in the mid-80s, while we lived nearby, we would visit Granny and Charlie on a regular basis — maybe once a week? We’d make the half-hour drive south from Riverview to Ruskin, passing retirement communities and various small towns and orange-packing plants and long expanses of nothing but sandspurs, until we finally took a few turns down overgrown back roads in Ruskin and made the left-hand turn onto Granny’s weed-choked driveway. I still remember the sound of the tall, dry weeds smacking the underside of Sammie’s car as we rumbled up the long drive, following the tire tracks through the overgrown palmettos and vines and other various semi-tropical underbrush.

Charlie’s old blue truck would be parked by the shack, and we’d pull into the front yard (which looked like every other front yard I’d seen in Florida: mainly sand, with a few sparse patches of crabgrass and prickers and sandspurs). Granny and Charlie were always glad to see us, and they’d come out of their shack to greet us with big ol’ grins on their weathered faces.

Granny and Charlie’s shack wasn’t really appropriate for company — the floorboards were oddly spaced and rotten, and there was no plumbing — so we mainly stood outside and talked; looking back, I don’t even really remember what we talked about. I was young enough that I still enjoyed playing with Granny’s thick, leathery skin; and I spent lots of time contemplating her long wispy white hair, always pulled up into about half a dozen tiny buns, each flattened to her head with a single bobby pin. She and Charlie both dipped snuff, so our visits would be punctuated with occasional spitting, either in a coffee can sitting on the ground or just right in the dirt and weeds, and they both smelled of tobacco.

I always had to be careful not to wander off; not that I was really tempted to go exploring, since everybody always made sure to remind me about all the snakes that lived in the weeds. Sometimes, though, Granny would take us back to see her garden. I honestly don’t remember much of what she grew, but I’m sure it was typical garden fare, with some southern stuff like okra thrown in for local color.

One day in particular, she took us a different way, opposite from the way to the garden. Just around the corner from where we’d parked our car in the yard, there grew a wild grapevine with ripe fruit. Granny picked a few grapes for us, and I remember how delicious they were, just for being wild. The skins were a silvery-lavender color and were thick; and there were seeds, of course. But I still remember those few grapes as being the best grapes I’d ever had, before or since.

We moved back to Ohio in the summer of 1987, and the last time I saw my Granny was during a summer vacation we took when I was in junior high, a couple years later. She died just after Thanksgiving, the fall of my Freshman year of high school, at age 79.

Funny, isn’t it, though, how we can look back on something that seemed so normal and commonplace at the time, and find such joyous details in the memories?

Tired Of This

Several years ago: New Year’s Eve at Aaron’s apartment on Enterprise in BG. After a long evening of adult beverages, food, and video games, I find myself lying on Aaron’s bed, with the room spinning around me. “I don’t want to be drunk anymore,” I say, as rationally as possible. Aaron patiently puts me to bed to sleep it off.

Last week: Bronchitis. The first case I can remember having — or at least, having officially diagnosed (I couldn’t remember back when I had it at age one). One week after being diagnosed and getting prescription meds, I find myself still hacking and coughing and not yet at 100%. “I don’t want to be sick anymore,” I say, between coughs, knowing full well that only time and meds will cure what ails me.

Now. Overweight. Still, after years of struggling (sometimes all-out, sometimes admittedly half-assed). I see myself in a video, full-length, doing aikido, looking frumpy and out of shape and unattractive. And it hits me: “I don’t want to be fat anymore,” I say to myself.

I’m steadily losing a pound and a half per week, and have been doing so since January. I’ve lost nine pounds, give or take. If I keep going at this rate, I could potentially be at my “ideal” weight by the end of August. I’m just so sick of looking and feeling the way I do, and so frustrated with the amount of time (and willpower and planning) it’s going to take to do it right.

I guess all I can do is keep doing what I’m doing. Keep moving in the right direction, one step at a time, and eventually I’ll get there. I’m still curious to see what I’ll look like in thirty pounds. It’s just… damn. I’m sick of being fat.