End of an Era

I finally did it.

After turning the thought over in my head for months now, I finally submitted my resignation as LSM webmaster.

It’s nothing against them. It’s just a reorganization of priorities for me. I can only handle so many projects at a time, and can only keep focused on so much. I’m sure that there is someone actively participating in the corps who has HTML skills and can do just as good a job as I did. Or better, probably.

I just haven’t been devoting the amount of time to the website that the corps deserves, and it’s been like that for quite a while now. LSM deserves more than I’m currently giving them. And I deserve to be cut free of the guilt I’ve been giving myself over that very issue.

The announcement feels like a weight lifted from my mind.

Writin’ My Novel With A Stick In The Sand

The astute observer will have noted that my NaNoWriMo word count has not moved since the end of the first week of November. This is not for lack of updating — this is for lack of writing.

I had a strong start. I cycled between four subsets of characters, and wrote one chapter for each. I’ll share their synopses, even though you may not care:

Character Set #1 is a married couple who has recently suffered a miscarriage (art imitating life? what?), which is nearly unheard of in this future society of DNA analysis and “selective progenesis”. They go to therapy, as prescribed by their doctor, but it is unhelpful. The wife ends up submitting her late embryo’s perfectly healthy DNA to an online service which is able to provide her with digital images of what her child might have looked like at various ages. She becomes obsessive and delusional, despite the therapy.

Character Set #2 is a teenaged couple; he was raised at home, she in a centralized government children’s home — an orphanage of sorts, although her parents may very well be alive, but allowed her to come to term without having successfully applied to have a child. This couple ends up experimenting with multiple simultaneous partners and drugs — basically, the girl invites the boy and his friends to an orgy at the children’s home.

Character Set #3 is another married couple, but this couple has had their child application denied. The buggy DNA belongs to the husband, who is summarily sterilized so as to prevent his mutation from spreading into the gene pool. His wife is unable to face the prospect of a childless future, and serves him divorce papers.

Character Set #4 brings back a familiar face: the doctor from Sets #1 and #3. This doctor has been practicing since before “selective progenesis” became government policy, and hates having to have people sterilized and having to terminate pregnancies for a few shady genes (or SNPs, if you prefer — Amy, I’m looking at you). He joins an underground society whose focus is saving fetuses which would otherwise be “reclaimed,” or terminated and collected for research purposes.

There was almost a Set #5, involving a law enforcement official who specialized in finding people who attempted to subvert the progenesis laws. After writing about a paragraph, I realized that I didn’t know enough about the process of detective work or about the inner workings of law enforcement officials and their driving sense of justice. (“Think Javert,” I have in my notes on this character.)

When I started the cycle anew, I got to a roadblock. I didn’t know what happened next with Set #1. So, I skipped them and moved to Set #2, whom I liked better, anyway. Then I realized that my NaNo could so easily turn into a smut book, even though I did have a focus for their story (guess who gets knocked up and ends up connecting with the rebellious doctor to save her baby?).

Then I just got distracted, and, well, there went the NaNo. Now I have decent starts to three, count ’em, three stories. And that doesn’t count the dozens of shitty false starts I have, too.

I’m not overly disappointed. A little, sure, but think about it. This ended up NOT being the month I could or should have concentrated all my effort on writing. New job, mainly, plus stuff with the sangha and trying to wrap up some of my other long-term projects (which I haven’t officially wrapped up yet, and I’m feeling kind of guilty about… but more on that later, probably).

I’ll get back to it eventually. I’ll try to plow through it, too, NaNo-style, and not think too hard about the details. That’s what editing is for.

Transferrable Skills

I’ve spent these first three weeks at my new job mainly trying to teach myself the reporting app we use. The person who would normally be my guru is still on maternity leave. Although I’ve picked up the basics, the finer points continue to elude me. I’m so close to understanding how the damn program works, but little things keep popping up and I have to wonder WHY can’t I choose CensusSummary as my Source table OMG?!

Anyway.

There’s a project in the early stages that I’m kind of being primed to work on. A division of the company wants to have a web-based dashboard, where they can see all their normally stodgy and numberiffic reports in an easy-to-read visual format. Awesome. Yesterday, we received a document from one of the end-users, giving us a detailed representation of what said end-users would like to see. I read the document, nodded to myself, and started sketching possibilities on a legal pad (without being asked — it’s just how I do. I’m the thumbnail queen).

Not long after, I get a Microsoft Visio document via e-mail from my boss. It’s his idea of how the dashboard could be laid out. He shows up in my cube shortly after the e-mail does, and I redirect him to my cute little tabbed-browsing concept piece. He says he likes mine better, and has me work up a mockup of my version of the dashboard.

That was most of my day today. And everyone seems to like the result so far.

Yay for my design skillz! As I told my boss, “You went and got me in my element!”

But wait. There’s more.

Around 3pm today, I was approached yet again by my supervisor. It appears that there’s a report that’s been being delayed in our usual development process, and the internal customer needs the report shortly after month-end. Someone had suggested importing the data into Access and using its reporting tools. Just so happens that my boss just hired someone fresh from doing major Access reporting on a regular basis…

Got a sample report, got someone to help me connect to the database via ODBC, and got started. By quitting time, I had most of a report worked out. I’ll have to work out a few details tomorrow. The boss caught me as I was getting my coat on, and I showed him what I had. He seemed to be genuinely impressed that I’d made that much progress already, and he made comment that I’m kind of saving the day. I don’t know about that…

At any rate, I’m finally feeling like a contributor to the team, even if everyone might be going a little out of their way to let the new girl know she’s doing a great job. I’ll take it.

Mrs. Grumpy-Pants

I tried to figure out my database reporting app all day, but was still confuddled by day’s end.

I left work extremely hungry, thanks to the apparently under-nourishing lunch I packed this morning. I guess a breakfast banana, brown rice with salsa and cheese, sugar-free pudding and a small yogurt just aren’t enough to keep me going. My plans to go to aikido were therefore thwarted, being that I required more sustenance than could be had in the five minutes I’d have at home before leaving for keiko.

One bowl of whole wheat rotini and tuna later — plus a bowl of Chocolatey Special K for “dessert” — I’m feeling sated.

Now I’m cold and tired, but don’t want to go to bed too early. That just means that tomorrow’s workday would come that much sooner.

Did I mention that Aaron’s Xbox 360 red-ringed last week? That’s a good month round trip until he gets a fixed Xbox. No vegging out in the recliner with Carcassonne or Backgammon or Catan or Puzzle Fighter. It’s harder to veg out with a Wii game, since they all seem to require actual movement and interaction. 🙂

Jeebus, I’m tired.

Just say no to the call of the refrigerator…